Jamaica trip journal entries !from July 20- August 5th

Blogged on July 30,2012 while serving in Jamaica.. It was a long day , Hence its Monday ;) So into Blossom Gardens to serve the Aunties and Love on these precious children with God's love. It was enlightening to have the lack of energy knowing that all that came out of me would either be my flesh fleeing to lay down on a bench or God showing up in a mighty way and holding me up.So forward on  I went to the baby room for the first 3 hours and just held sang and fed them.One little girl was getting her hair done all pretty and a brand new outfit was picked out for her along with a new pair of sandals. They got her all dressed and she left escorted away as one of the Aunties turned to release tears- there was a handful of children that left BG today with good promise to be adopted out which is so wonderful but at the same time so heart breaking for these Aunties who love these children and do such an amazing job at caring for their needs- these children are definitely loved by these women. After feeding time I was beginning to feel the lack of energy again and needed to eat to regain stamina. I ate and read from my Bible the Proverbs of the day. What really stood out to me was the verse from Prov.30:5 "Every word of God is pure : He is a shield unto them that put their trust in Him. 8: " Remove far from me vanity and lies; give me neither  poverty nor riches; feed me with food convenient for me; lest I be full and deny thee, and say Who is the LORD ? or lest I be poor, and steal and take the name of my God in vain." I have had this burden and fear that leaving Jamaica and returning back to my normal life would soon erase what I have seen and experienced while here and I feared the shame and guilt that I would have to live with- I made this verse my prayer and was just asking God to help me to serve Him and please Him with my response to what I have obtained through this that it wouldn't be vain. I left the break room heavy and began talking with the Financial Advisor of BG and was asking him how he was doing. He responded by telling me that he was heavy spirited and I told him how I was feeling that a couple days ago. I listened to him as he poured out his heart and burden for providing for his family and the trying to understand why he chose to put his faith in God. He serves the Lord, He loves him and has brought up his children in the Lord and while he struggles to provide he sees the evil prosper in their ways and it really dissuades him and leaves him feeling heavy. After just reading this chapter from the Bible I realized that this was very relative to what we were talking about. As we were both sitting very tired after such a long day - God showed up and encouraged us both. He was asking me where we were staying and he lit up and said he knew where we were because he goes to the Verney House once a month for meetings with the Gidions Bible Association. He brings Bibles to Nursing Homes, Hospitals and the Homeless etc. I was telling him how we were kicking ourselves about not bringing Bibles after their being a number of requests for them at the Granville Girls Home (Prison) He was quick to say that he will bring them Bibles - what an awesome encouragement to him to be reminded how he is making a difference and for us because we had been praying that God would provide Bibles for these girls wanting Bibles.Thank You Jesus! Please pray that as the girls receive these Bibles that they will grow and desire after God and His will for them and that His word would not return void- Oh how He loves them <3 nbsp="" p="">


Day 4- July 24th,2012
I am not much of a blogger so much of what I wanted to share with you in this entry is directly from my Journal – I hope that it reaches you in some way as God has through just walking where He would lead me. It was a lovely Wednesday morning seeing Debbie arise and smile with no more migraine – Thank you Jesus!! And thank you Saints for praying! We were presented with a lovely breakfast including scrambled eggs, a collard green like substance and mango slices fresh from the tree outside and a cup of Jamaican Java and shortly after set sail for Café Blue and I got an iced Jamaican coffee brew and some hula hoops at the drug store next store for the kids at the Blossom gardens for 350 Jamaican dollars :O we got stamps, water and all the items to get through the week. Our first stop would be at the Melody House where we finished up making some aprons and t-shirt rugs and had a sweet day of victory with sewing machines working when they all decided not to work the previous day,  I was working with a young girl who really wanted to quit along with me with all of yesterdays frustrations – but we both managed to get through the project with restored sewing machines and had a victory in the completions of two aprons which she made for a friend and even stitched her initials into it- so sweet and thoughtful of her- The Melody House is having a fish fry for a fundraiser on Friday so you can be in prayer for  God to accomplish all that concerns the facility and move people to take action to support financially and prayerfully and however else the Lord would impress their hearts. We ate lunch in the vehicle on our way to the Grandville Girls “Home” around 1.With a lovely 45 minute drive and satisfied bellies I was feeling pretty confident in presenting the girls with a smile as well as Jesus love . As we drove up to the gate there was a security guard that authorized our entry in the court yard where we parked and were then enclosed by a maybe 12 ft. fence lined with bobbed wire. The girls were on the other side of the fence that looked more like a prison to me than any facility I have ever seen- they were ruff housing it and hitting and pushing and laughing, quite a mixed amount of emotion all at once. There were around 60 girls there ranging from the age of 10-17. We were all responsible to bring out what we had brought in . I brought a Uno game and a bag of color crayons for coloring- and before you know it the girls had all the crayons out and we were sitting at the picnic table playing uno and coloring. I was greeting and getting to know names and was sure to keep a smile on my face as to bring cheer and a merry countenance to the girls- I held that smile on my face and was sure to keep it there at all times. Then I began to notice things, such as dark sad eyes and scars over every piece of flesh I saw – I began to recognize in the midst of the clay covered ground marked with rubble was  where the feet of these hurting children would spend the next season of their life however long that would be I have no idea- but it was a dagger to think that these girls had never experienced a sense of love and acceptance. It was really hard to take in and I immediately grew sad with  hidden tears that the little 10 year old girl that called me Momma was around the age of my eldest daughter and  I imagined my Hannah behind these bars. This little girl wanted me to walk with her and play with her. We sat and played a round of jenga and then she just wanted me to watch her and tell her what a great job she was doing- I kept praising her and high fiving her and just watched her as she announced “ this is is fun” This is soo much fun Momma” I know that this is what a lot of the girls must call the Nannies or workers but I couldn’t help but respond in my heart “ I am willing,  I will be your Momma” I loved this little girl and I took her under my wing. I will never forget her and will pray for her as she were my own daughter for safety favor and Jesus to be in her and show her great and marvelous things and show her the plans that He has to prosper her and give her a future and hope. This was so hard especially walking away feeling helpless and at the same time accountable. There is no way that I can just turn away and do nothing . I have this awareness and responsibility for these girls. I know that the burden isn’t for me to carry because I also know that the love that I feel fades away in comparison to the love that the Father has for these girls.  I will just end this with this verse James 2: 14- 17 “ If a brother or sister be naked, and destitute of daily food, And one of you say unto them, Depart in peace, be ye warmed and filled; notwithstanding ye give them not those things which are needful to the body; which doth it profit? Even so faith, if it hath not works , is dead, being alone.

My Allegory of James 1 -

"It took 6 months- but God is good- and it took me to write this to discover that James 1 was the work He did- that Faith without works is dead- "I can say that He is alive and not just by what I read in the Bible- but by the work of the Bible in my life".

April 14th - Our house went on the market (an answer to some closet prayers)- thus beginning the declutter process: yardsale, packing "extras" and shipping them to the inlaws and my sister's. Then the showings begin- and with 3 kids , in the midst of Homeschooling and wrapping up the school year- it was hell on earth- I became this "demon" Mom who would turn tyrant at the touch of a pillow that was nicely placed on the couch or a toy that gallanted from the hand of toddler onto the floor- As soon as the house was cleaned a mess would shortly follow- James 1:1-3 " Consider it pure joy my brethren when you fall under various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience" I had a hard enough time with the mere thought that strangers were going to be coming to our home and "snooping" - I wanted these house hounters to at least have something good to say about the space when they are looking for one reason not to consider this their house; one couple came in , saw a hose strayed across the yard (loving everything else about the house) and because they saw this hose- it was an absolutely no!!- another one was - the color of the paint on the wall- loved everything about the house but the yellow paint- its like hello people- havent you ever heard of ... paint?- !! Anyways - I can see that this blog is going to turn into a short novel very quickly if I am not careful! and I would hate to bore you with my wrambling. so moving on... We only had one offer on our home- and I was correctly encouraged thats all it would take.. one person to like your house.. and after 27 showings.. you can say that i was beginning to take it personally.. okay .. it was after the 4th showing.. and after the thoughts would shoot into my mind like a fire has no question it is hot- i began to be flooded with the assumption that this house was a curse in my life for all the mess that we I have made for myself and my family- James 1:4"Perseverance must finish its work so you can be mature and complete, not lacking anything" I began to seperate myself from my family, my kids , my husband thinking that I was destroying them by just being me.. let me just say SATAN IS A LIAR and i was believing all that was being whispered into my ear.

James 1:5 " If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."

So with the house being on the market - alot of other things decided to come up from the wood work- God was doing a work in my heart- He wanted me to let go of all the lies, the chaos going on in my mind and heart- I again was not trusting Him, that my life was in His hands and that He made me for such a time as this , to parent these children, to love and help my husband , and to be a friend, a sister a .. you get it.. He loves my kids, husband so much more than I ever could- and yet He chose me to be there to fill a part in their lives -and only through Him could these things blossom into something eternally meaningful <3> James 1:6-8 ""But let him ask in faith , with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. for let not that man suppose that he will recieve anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways."

I was reminded how He had already moved in my life over the coarse of the last 8 years of my walk with Him, that He had a plan for me , to prosper me , and I could look back and see how he had carried me this far- and for me to recall the many prayers that I prayed regarding foster care /adoption and God revealing to me His will in that regards, and it was on my heart to pray for forgiveness ( James 1:21- "Therefore lay aside all filthiness and overfloiw of wickedness, and recieve with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls") and for me to believe in a time of unbelief; .. if our mission was to do this that God would move on my husband's heart - and when Dave mentioned selling the house- it was confirmation to those many recent prayers- I knew that God was moving and in a literal way- so I could only expect that If God was going to be doing His work that the enemy would try to creep in and destroy His work- and with that I can say that he may have crept in and mingled with my mind and decissions to be in disbelief and unrelience on God's Almighty power in our lives- but that snake didnt win so much as a crumb- His word was at work in our lives- even in the midst of mental disbelief: James 1:22-25 God came in picked me up and loved me and showed Himself to me through it all - and to sum it up - we sold our house on my Birthday!!

" James 1:17- Every good and perfect gift comes down from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning"

I know that I know that I know my God lives- He reigns in my heart and in my mind- and no matter how many times I fall - He will be there to lift me up- and enable me to do His will!!

James 1:27- "...to visit orphans and widows in time of trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world"

Momentous Monday!!

I was feeling pretty drough today with missing the ladies Monday study that I attend at my Church with us going through the stomach bug blues at our home, but greatful to keep it home rather than spreading the plague ;)
I woke up mad at the world- my Husband, my kids,and My God - I was just mad and couldnt figure out what was wrong with my thinking, it was unrational and unecessary. I remember thinking, " okay Ronnie this is rediculous, you really need to settle down and go to God with this stinkn thinkn". So did I? Nope- I continued through the day feeling resentment and out of my mind mad. At this point into this blog your probably thinking to yourself- okay! and she is calling this a momentous Monday? a "Spiritual reflection of a memory that I want to share with the "world"", or better yet," a nugget of truth from God's word"- ha!! Sorry- its a stinkn thinkn matter at this point into it, but it gets better... I promise!!

Okay so as I was continuing through the day, it was about 10 and I started reading the book of mormon because the LDS missionaries dropped by and asked me to pray weither Joseph Smith were true in his prophecies or not and I told them that I am grounded in the Word of God and that I will not remove my feet from God's word- so if this Book of Mormon contradicts God's word than we are done conversing. So to say the least, I need to hand them their book and let them move on unless they are willing to hear about the real Jesus.

On Christ the solid ground I stand all other ground is sinking sand, all other ground is sinking sand.

Okay so I decided to pray that the Holy Spirit would lead me through the study that I was doing and holding the B.O.M( Book of Mormon) up to the light of the scriptures and God showed me a really cool verse from the book of John that really summed up . John 8:30- 32

30: "As He spoke these words,many believed in Him. 31:Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed in Him, If you abide in My word you are My disciples indeed.32: And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free." this last verse was the one that the missionaries for another testament of Jesus Christ wanted me to pray regarding wether Joseph Smith were true and wether or not I should follow his teachings. :O Please dont get me wrong I am NOT anti-mormon- I am just anti any literature that goes against the word of God, and if God's word says that I only need to abide in His word which is the Holy Bible( the book that has changed me for every good and meaningful thing ever ) that I have been reading for almost 9 years now than there is just no other option for me. (( period))

Okay so with this I know that what I believe to be true about God and Him being who He say He is, the Alpha and Omega the Beginning and The End!! The Author and Perfector of my faith. (Just to name a few) and it wasnt because I prayed and asked God weither or not He was who He said He was - it was because I asked Him to show Himself to me.. and He did!! He is all I need! I know I am going on and on and I really appreciate your time if you have read this far into what it is that I wanted to share- it means alot to know that even one person would take the time to "listen" to little me. Okay so where I wanted to go with this was a little prayer I made to today asking God to show love to me through my husband in a way that I would know it was from HIM!!! I hadnt talked to my husband all day- and we usually talk a good 3 times while he is at work, so this just made me realize that I had really hurt him with my words this morning :(. So he comes home and he has this bag with a wrapped gift in it. I open it up and it is a beautiful butterfly!! A symbol to me that I am a new creation. Which brings me to this verse: 2Cor. 5:17- " If anyone is in Christ he( she) is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new." A settle reminder that I am in Christ~~ no matter how stinky my heart can be at times- I belong to Him! I am sorry Lord that I have disappointed You and others that You have placed in my life- thank You for such a unconditional love that You have for all !!

I love how God uses my husband in ways that not even he knows about!! He is such a good God a God who loves you right where you are, no matter how many times you have blown it.
If you are reading this and you are not a Christian and you would like to beleive on Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior than I would like to invite you to do so now, this will be the one thing that will make the most impact on both your life here on earth and your eternal life in Heaven. the scriptures say: "For whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved." Romans 10:13
tell the Lord that you believe in Him and you will be saved <3 read your Bible or go to a Bible Believing Church and get aquanted with the people! and remeber
Jesus loves you!!!

Theres a Cry in My Heart!!

I have this song pressing on my heart this morning and with the meaning behind it I thought it would be a great opportunity to be Spiritually Lead through this blog to what it is that God would have me say in these regards: " What is it that You want me to be persuing for Your Kingdom"
Before I continue on I would like to quote from this song:

"Cry In My Heart"
By Starfield
"There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper
Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head "

Through this song and what is is asking- What do I have if I dont have You Jesus?

What in this life could mean anything? Life without Jesus is meaningless, hopeless, all the opposites of what Jesus has to offer me. Not to say that I have days feeling empty, lonely and discontented in my spirit. But He is the lifter of my head and I ALWAYS have Him to turn to.

(to sum it up I cant do anything without Him- If He is not the rock of my life then where does my strength come from?) If I am tired in my flesh with living day to day knowing that I have the power of my savior to move mountains; yet not His love then I have nothing. 1 Cor.13:2

I think I can convince people to open their eyes to see what they believe is a lie- that they are following after a false Jesus, and yet I dont have the compassion as Jesus did for the lost. I am in the wrong place- I need to have a genuine heart to lead these people in love to the truth- just as Jesus fed and clothed and even healed, I need to present the gospel in a loving way not a way that condemns them to hell for not believing the Bible which is the roots of my being.Ephesians 3:17-19 How can I show them? In some way remove the scales from their eyes and the immediate answer is: Leviticus 10:3 " 'Among those who approach me
I will show myself holy;
in the sight of all the people
I will be honored.' "
Aaron remained silent. It is not up to me to get the point across- to save the lost and win them over to the Lord- it is by His power and my willingness to be used by Him- "HE WILL SHOW HIMSELF" ... Haleluja!!! Thank You Jesus!!

I wish not to share what this prayer is in complete details refering to - just for the sake of keeping the peace! But I dont want to waste time, "casting my pearls before swine" If God cant get through to them and open their eyes- "remove the scales of deception" then I need to move on- and realize that seeds where planted and that God loves people and what He started He will complete.- It doesnt have to be through me.
God, theres a cry in my heart for Your Mercy to fall, For you presence to fill up my senses..."

What is the cry in your heart? You can cry out to God, He has great plans to prosper you in all you do , pray to Him and He will hear you and He will be found by you !!Jer.2911-14

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Marriage Vows!!

 

This never is easy- I suppose it would be nice to for once share something that is easy- but I think that this is something that God is working in our lives to make us more like Him... Thank you to all of you who have supported me in my blog writing and sharing things that are not easy for me to share- thank you for loving me anyways and letting me know it- the comments really keep me going. I need my friends to comment- it spurs me on to keep going in this BLOG journey!!
Okay- I wanted to blog about something that God has done in my life over the course of the last couple of weeks( It was a friends idea actually; See your comments really play a part in this).....okay anyways!!!! It reared its ugly head a few weeks back on the night of the Father Daughter Ball - and as I shared that was dealing with alot of emotional vomit a friend lovingly said- " well honey, have you prayed and asked God to reveal to you why you responded that way?" so taking that into consideration I gave my anger and hurt to God; and before things got better they took a turn for the worse. I definitely have a problem with outbursts of rage- ( not easy to confess , but its the truth)
James 5:16
"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."
I am pretty passive when it comes to conflict- I would much rather avoid it mainly because I know my response when it comes to parenting and marriage!! I think that they don't hear me and that the only way that I can get across is by yelling!!ARGGG!!I know that is not true- it is more of an issue of how I confront the situation.. I just don't!~ I let it go and go on and on until the camels back breaks.... Okay so now that I have gotten that out of the way- Here's what God has been telling me.
"Ronnie you have made a covenant to love your husband.. and you don't.... you have made a covenant to love me.. and well, you haven't.. Love is not something you say - it is something you DO!! How have you been showing love to your husband and how have you been showing love to me? You cannot love him in and of yourself.. because honey, I am LOVE!!! ouch- I love you Father, I read your word, I ask You for help,I.. " But you don't trust me, You have been living in this home with resentment and unforgiveness for things that I have forgotten, I have a future and hope for you and your husband and YOU are in the way" I want you to move aside and stand at my right hand and let me move in the hearts of those that I love, I need you to trust that I am at work in your lives and that I will not leave you here, I have loved you with an everlasting love-No Matter what~~~
So with this .. I got mad at Dave and lost my ring, ( well I chucked it at him and said I cant do this by myself so here you go....) So my ring was nowhere to be found.. Hannah my oldest found the wedding band a couple days later, but the engagement ring was nowhere to be found. I know God was telling me that I would not find it until I would wear it and mean it. I did a little research on the history of the wedding ring and what it represents:
The wedding band's shape represents an unbroken promise of love and commitment. The circle has no beginning and no end; therefore, the marriage has no end.In ancient times, the Egyptians and the Romans shared the belief that a vein from the fourth finger lead directly to the heart. As such, it seemed a logical place for the placement of the wedding band. The practice was passed down and the fourth finger is now universally known as the ring finger.
Okay! So 2 weeks have past and I still have not found my engagement ring... We went to a marriage conference and I didn't want anyone to see that my ring was missing so I turned it over in hopes that none to see so I wouldn't have to lie and say it was in the shop. What I didn't know was that this weekend would be one in which God would place in my heart a deep love for my husband, I love my husband I really do , but this was a different love!! A love that keeps no record of wrong, a love that assumes the best!! a love that.. well here's the verse 1 Corinthians 3:4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
God had done something in me that could be only because I was in a place of humility- I was wrong and I admit it!! My husband does love me and want to be the best that he can be and I am tearing him down all the time because he isn't doing things the way that I think he should or , he's not being the spiritual leader that I think God wants him to be......" So with that I surrendered.
I came home from that retreat a changed woman. As I was picking weeds in my garden and praying that God would bless my husband at work and give him strength and that He would pick all the weeds from our marriage so that He could take root in those areas and low and behold sitting right there in front of me amidst the weeds was my wedding ring :O I really believe that God had sent an angel into our home the previous Wednesday and had it placed there- I say that because we came home that night to our front door wide opened!! Okay it may not be true, but how else would it have gotten outside when where I through it was inside the house in the dining room ? hmm!! I will let you decide what may have happened- but all I can say is that I have my wedding ring back and it is there to stay- and I mean it!!

The Jungle Gym!!

I havent been writting in my blog for the last couple weeks- not that i have a regular schedule - although I love the idea that many have of writting every other day! Anywho!!
I though it would be appropriate to blog about the parenting challenges and convictions that I have been overcoming by the Grace of God.
On Friday of last week Dave ( my husband ) and I thought it would be a great idea to take the kids to a restaunt with an indoor jungle gym and get a little time to 'kick up our feet' and talk while the children enjoyed some much needed running around. So as we finished up our meals and the kids were off playing - Dave and I were enjoying some interupted convo- given we have our one year old running around - so my eye was on him while my ears were on Dave; up until we heard the most horrible screams of what I though were death coming from my two girls- Dave and I were panicing running around this hamster cage of a jungle gym. I had a picture in my head of a child being strangled or entrapted by a net or something- the screams where that horrifying. I couldnt get my girls to calm down to talk to me of what was going on. I finally yelled and said " Hannah, you need to tell me what is going on" She was screaming back to this little boy who was apparantly choking her, punching her in the back , pulling her hair and yes, shoving his hand down here throat" SHe was telling him NO, you stop it" my 4 year old was screaming in fear for what was happening to her sister. This went on for a good 3 minutes until the Father of this little boy went up to get him. I heard them mention " Is he beating her up, long before they went up to get the little bugger. He must have been 3 or 4. Anyways!! with all this I was furious with the way the parents handled the situation:the Mother was standing alongside me to retrieve our children, as soon as he came down, his Father walked by to return to his seat as the Mother glared at me , I got down to eye level and asked my girls what happend, holding them and comforting them, as Hannah told me what this little boy had done, the mother and the little boy began to walk away, I stopped him by scooting over in front of him and told him
" what you did was not okay, you dont treat people that way" his Mom did not like that , and maybe I was out of line for interfering that way, but I was so furious and if his Mom wasnt going to scold him than I was:O Arg!! So the girls were collected and went on their way to playing. The rest of the time there was awkward. This little boy was sitting with his parents screaming and crying that he was sorry, as the Mom continued to stare the glare at me , for what I had said to her son. Man I really felt bad for taking over like that but it was just something that happened. Anyways!! I hear Hannah saying to her friend and sister , obviously for this little boy to hear " yeah! that little boy was mean" I called her down and she took a break as I explained to her," You talking like that of him was just as wrong as what he did to you, God wants You to be forgiving of the wrongs that others commit to you just as God forgives us of ours wrongs" Mathew 6:14 " For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you." She went on to tell me that she forgave him, through all his crying that he was sorry- (I believe that he was)Hannah walked up to him and said that she forgave him.
We left that evening and I was wondering why we had gone there in the first place, asking God why? Why did we go there if we would be such a horrible witness- we sat there , prayed for our meal in front of all these people, laughed with eachother , and then things appeared to go bad:( this is how my last couple weeks have gone, we have gone places , without recieving or doing anything that seems to be accomplishable, nothing that just speaks out- "well done, you have been a light and aroma of Christ" which is my prayer when we go out in public. It has been so disheartening to feel like a waste of God's resources. BUT I have been encouraged through this crazy Jungle Gym. I have God on my side- You have God on your side too!! no matter how messy a situation can be . No matter what we face while we are in the Jungle Gym of Life- God will not abandon us when things get rough! He will be there to carry us through. He will give us a way of escape and He will fulfill His purpose.
Psalm 138:8
" The LORD will fulfill His purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures forever- do not abandon the works of your hands. "

To God Be the Glory!!

My prayer this last week was that the Lord would stir up the gifts that He has given me- I am not sure where I have heard that- if its a verse or just something I read in a book- but sure enough in a very visual way He has shown me what those gifts were. I believed that the desires I had for sewing and photography were there with a purpose- for the sewing it brough me to Jamaica to teach young ladies to sew for a skill in making money for their families- and this week I got a email response from a nurse from a local Hospital asking me to make scrubs for her and other Nurse friends. With photography I have taken pictures of my friends kids,their families and even 1 wedding - all for the joy of doing it. I absolutely love the idea that I am able to bless someone with a gift like that will bless them for the rest of their lives and something that they can also pass on to someone else. So with that... I have been asked to do a wedding and they even want to pay me :o .. I cant believe it- I am nervous and have no idea what I am doing, but I really believe that this is God's hand and I have no doubt that they wont turn out... I give God the glory for this and feel really unworthy to have such an opportunity as making someones most important day into a photographic display to share with their children and family. I have since then offered this opportunity with a friend who also shares the same passion for photography. so I pray that this will be something that will cause her little light to shine as well. These are such small things in all of peoples eyes- but God knows how incopmetant I am and these little things mean a BIG lot of sweet kinda lovn from my Big Daddy!!!
God has given me a peace to accept these things as the gifts that He has given me and they are the desires of my heart <3 and for that I am giving all the glory to God for ALL the things that he has done for me.... things so undeserved and the picture is Soo much bigger than the little things... He is a God who has plans for you Jer. 29
:11,12- to prosper you in all that you do, your parenting, your mentoring, your growing in His word and as a dear child to the King. I look forward to growing closer to Him and all the great things He has for me- I dont want to miss out on all His goodness!! To God Be The Glory- for the things He has done.. and will continue to do.