Marriage Vows!!

 

This never is easy- I suppose it would be nice to for once share something that is easy- but I think that this is something that God is working in our lives to make us more like Him... Thank you to all of you who have supported me in my blog writing and sharing things that are not easy for me to share- thank you for loving me anyways and letting me know it- the comments really keep me going. I need my friends to comment- it spurs me on to keep going in this BLOG journey!!
Okay- I wanted to blog about something that God has done in my life over the course of the last couple of weeks( It was a friends idea actually; See your comments really play a part in this).....okay anyways!!!! It reared its ugly head a few weeks back on the night of the Father Daughter Ball - and as I shared that was dealing with alot of emotional vomit a friend lovingly said- " well honey, have you prayed and asked God to reveal to you why you responded that way?" so taking that into consideration I gave my anger and hurt to God; and before things got better they took a turn for the worse. I definitely have a problem with outbursts of rage- ( not easy to confess , but its the truth)
James 5:16
"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."
I am pretty passive when it comes to conflict- I would much rather avoid it mainly because I know my response when it comes to parenting and marriage!! I think that they don't hear me and that the only way that I can get across is by yelling!!ARGGG!!I know that is not true- it is more of an issue of how I confront the situation.. I just don't!~ I let it go and go on and on until the camels back breaks.... Okay so now that I have gotten that out of the way- Here's what God has been telling me.
"Ronnie you have made a covenant to love your husband.. and you don't.... you have made a covenant to love me.. and well, you haven't.. Love is not something you say - it is something you DO!! How have you been showing love to your husband and how have you been showing love to me? You cannot love him in and of yourself.. because honey, I am LOVE!!! ouch- I love you Father, I read your word, I ask You for help,I.. " But you don't trust me, You have been living in this home with resentment and unforgiveness for things that I have forgotten, I have a future and hope for you and your husband and YOU are in the way" I want you to move aside and stand at my right hand and let me move in the hearts of those that I love, I need you to trust that I am at work in your lives and that I will not leave you here, I have loved you with an everlasting love-No Matter what~~~
So with this .. I got mad at Dave and lost my ring, ( well I chucked it at him and said I cant do this by myself so here you go....) So my ring was nowhere to be found.. Hannah my oldest found the wedding band a couple days later, but the engagement ring was nowhere to be found. I know God was telling me that I would not find it until I would wear it and mean it. I did a little research on the history of the wedding ring and what it represents:
The wedding band's shape represents an unbroken promise of love and commitment. The circle has no beginning and no end; therefore, the marriage has no end.In ancient times, the Egyptians and the Romans shared the belief that a vein from the fourth finger lead directly to the heart. As such, it seemed a logical place for the placement of the wedding band. The practice was passed down and the fourth finger is now universally known as the ring finger.
Okay! So 2 weeks have past and I still have not found my engagement ring... We went to a marriage conference and I didn't want anyone to see that my ring was missing so I turned it over in hopes that none to see so I wouldn't have to lie and say it was in the shop. What I didn't know was that this weekend would be one in which God would place in my heart a deep love for my husband, I love my husband I really do , but this was a different love!! A love that keeps no record of wrong, a love that assumes the best!! a love that.. well here's the verse 1 Corinthians 3:4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
God had done something in me that could be only because I was in a place of humility- I was wrong and I admit it!! My husband does love me and want to be the best that he can be and I am tearing him down all the time because he isn't doing things the way that I think he should or , he's not being the spiritual leader that I think God wants him to be......" So with that I surrendered.
I came home from that retreat a changed woman. As I was picking weeds in my garden and praying that God would bless my husband at work and give him strength and that He would pick all the weeds from our marriage so that He could take root in those areas and low and behold sitting right there in front of me amidst the weeds was my wedding ring :O I really believe that God had sent an angel into our home the previous Wednesday and had it placed there- I say that because we came home that night to our front door wide opened!! Okay it may not be true, but how else would it have gotten outside when where I through it was inside the house in the dining room ? hmm!! I will let you decide what may have happened- but all I can say is that I have my wedding ring back and it is there to stay- and I mean it!!